It's easier during the day when you're with people, smiling, fun. We are so young after all. But at night it's different, when it's you alone wth your thoughts and your doubts. Wouldn't it be awesome if we never had to sleep? Everything would be easier to deal with.

What I would give to roll a fat joint and smoke it now. Poof, problems gone. The only time I've ever seeked help from drugs for my problems. Luckily music offers a very good alternative.

I'm so sick of talking and actually ahving to sort these problems out. Why can't I have everyone? Why do I have to be limited to one? Morals suck.

Shit...how the hell is it even humanly possible to fall in love with more than one person at a time? That should be...not allowed to happen. Or something. Or we should be pared up from birth, that way all our love problems would be gone. Or all become gay. That sounds fun.

I want to run away...I want to abandon ALL of them. I make that sound like hoardes of men. Just two. Two stupid boys...both of which I'm probably not going to end p marrying. Yeah. Fuck Sailer and his rhyming bullshit. I do it my way. Rogue.

Where did the tough Micke go to? Shit, the one who mouthed everyone off? Cool comebacks? A Manizer. I used to cool. Love makes you pathetic and weak.

More to come...